Life is an ever evolving process of learning, growth, and improvement. I feel better after writing about everything. Holding things in only does more damage than good. Being empathetic can be a burden in itself. I feel things ten times more than the average person. The emotions are ten times amplified. And when someone hurts me, well… you guessed it. I don’t bounce back as quickly as I used to. It took me a few days but my confidence is slowly improving. Being emotional or showing emotion has this stigma to it for women. We have to be soft but not too soft that we look weak. And strong, but not too strong we emasculate the man. I can’t control other people. Not their emotions. Not their behavior. Not even their perception of me. It’s not my job. But I can control me.
I feel better after setting this free. I’m taking my energy back. Holding on to my joy. Tomorrow is going to be an amazing day and a beautiful start to the last half of 2024.