Being a maverick is not new to me. Authenticity comes as natural to me as the ginger locks on my head. Genuinely giving with the intention of making someone smile. In tune with the universe at the price of peace. Today my soul feels heavy. I can feel the conversation behind closed doors. The name calling and childish behavior from someone with an arrogance that screams I’m superior. All the while their inferiority complex shines brighter than the sun. So, why am I doubting? Why am I stressing? Why am I worrying? Why do I care what is going on behind my back? The answer…I don’t. I am letting go of everyone else’s narrative of me.

As I look at the mountain of problems I’m facing I’m reminded to count my blessings. Pray for my enemies. And focus on what I can fix instead of getting overwhelmed by the big picture. Baby steps. I will overcome all of this.

I’m grateful for the people in my life. The ones who call. The ones who text. The ones who are here day to day. And the ones who keep me in their prayers. It’s been a rough year and it doesn’t seem to be letting up. Thank you for loving me through it.

The first day of the second half of the year. Today is full of endless possibilities. Whatever you are facing, you got this.

Dating…such a dirty word at this age. Finding someone to do life with this late in the game is very similar to pin the tail on the donkey. You go in blind and hope you win in the end. I have a tendency to choose the wrong men. I get through a few bad dates before I give up. The sea of fish has been reduced to a puddle. It’s not for the faint of heart. They say just be yourself. Not going to lie, I am awkward as f***. I laugh nervously. Start stories and forget where I was going with it mid sentence. Spout off some random fact my brain serves up. I’m weird. And I have a lot going on personally. I don’t mind it but finding someone who can put up with me has been a challenge. Next post we will talk about what I’m looking for.

2024 is the year of the dragon. My year. It was supposed to be my year. It started off pretty low key but took a traumatic turn before January ended. It’s taken some time, we are still picking up the pieces but it’s getting better. I had planned on starting this at the beginning of the year. However, it didn’t happen. SO… here I am. Starting a new chapter July 1st, 2024. I’m going to bring you along for the ride. For the first time ever I will include the commentary of my children. Because they are my life and deserve a say in this. It may or may not come with a pod cast attached to it where myself and my children will recap our thoughts on my dating journey. I might even let them pick who I do and do not go on a date with. And we may bring a few of the dates on the pod cast to recap their thoughts of the date. July is set up month. Set up pod cast equipment. Set up blog or decide to use one of the two I already own. Get signed up with dating sites. Scope out new places to meet people my age. Etc, etc, etc…

I’m excited to begin this new journey. And I’m excited my children are a part of it. Vita Nova!