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Someone once told me I could walk into a room naked and no one would notice. Words that resonate with you for life. I was brought up in a way that placed self doubt in my mind. Provided body insecurities instead of confidence. Every now and again I catch a glimpse of myself and fail to recognize the person staring back. I don’t feel the way that reflection looks. But it’s there. Staring back at me.
Or when a man comments on a woman’s body, I shut down. If he thinks of her that way then what does he think of me. And what made him so comfortable with telling me this?
I’ve been really hard on myself lately. But I’m also dealing with a lot of stress recently. My body isn’t budging. I’ve been stuck at the weight I am for a while now. The advice I get from men, starve yourself and do lots of cardio. Horrible advice to give. What frightens me is there is some other woman out there that will be desperate enough to take that advice. It’s harmful to speak to a woman like that. It’s hurtful when it comes from someone you thought cared about you.
I know I need to make changes. I’m overwhelmed with all need to find a way to relax. To control my cortisol levels. I feel as though I won’t ever reach my goal. But I know I have to. I’m all Rory and Grady have left.