Ever start out strong only to feel yourself drifting from your purpose? The very reason you started a self journey was to discover parts of yourself you didn’t know existed. And then a single question changes everything. What good are the lessons and self discovery if you close yourself off and keep them hidden? Damn…

Full disclosure, I don’t trust people. Most people. I’ve lived a life of broken promises and let downs. I have had to learn how to do things on my own because I didn’t have back up. I didn’t have a partner. So, the longer I lived on my own, the more I learned to overcome obstacles. I learned that I could do most anything. And I could trust me to get things done. I learned to love myself but it came at a price. I’m not always allowed to live in my softness as a woman. I am often the butt of jokes for knowing how to fix things. I’m told I’m to sensitive about some things. To cold over others. I’m both mother and father to my kids. I keep people at a distance because letting them in is a risk. When someone tells me they are on my side, I don’t believe it because I have heard it before. But that one question made me rethink everything I’ve done in the name of protection. I’ve been surviving in my bubble, with my children. I say surviving because living is by action. I used to put myself out there and truly experience life. When did adventure get replaced with fear? And how did my wide eyed wonder turn stagnant? I haven’t allowed me to be me in years. So many people along the way tried to change who I am, I locked her away for safe keeping. I dimmed my own light to escape disappointment. So, yeah…one question set me back on course. And all those lessons learned I’ve racked up through the years…it’s time I put them to good use.